Spelling, Grammar and Moments

Recently, it was brought to my attention that - to put it frankly - my grammar sucks. 

This character weakness is well known. I don't exactly hide it here.

It's something I pretty much knew, but I guess not to the point that I recently heard about it. It was the type of thing where upon hearing it, I wanted to crawl into bed and pull the blankets over my head for being so terribly embarrassed. 

I actually for a moment thought of not writing here anymore.

Just like all things domestic - there are some things I'm good at, and others...not so much.

I'll let you guess which way the domestic thing rolls for me.

I first want to apologize for my crazy slang, half sentences or run on sentences. I'm far from being proper. 

I may write 'here' instead of 'hear' or 'there' instead of 'their'. 

I may have a comma or an apostrophe out of place too. 

I do know better. 

But you see, sometimes I forget I'm writing to all of you. 

When I write, it's as if I'm writing in a journal for myself. 

The words pour out quicker than I can type them. 

I'm not thinking grammatically; I'm thinking of just putting the point down on paper to remind myself of a moment or of a thought before giving in to my drooping eyelids.

I'm pretty sure you wouldn't believe me if I told you I actually do proof read what I write. But those 3am late nights are tough. I'm tapping away at the keyboard after putting in a full day and sometimes there is not much else left for my brain to give at that point. Especially going on three hours of sleep from the night before. 

It's a poor excuse, but it's my reality right now.

While I would hate for you to think of me any less professional or educated than I am - 

I would rather you walk away thinking I'm real. 

I make mistakes. I think out loud. I write personally, not professionally. 

I'm not perfect and I hope you still like me that way. 

And maybe that's not the best approach. 

And maybe I shouldn't be starting my sentences with 'and' or 'but' or 'because'. But sometimes I do. 

I may write that way because of how it's forming in my head or maybe just for effect...or is it affect?! ; ) 

And that's okay. Because this here is my world. 

Some of you may be completely turned off by it and I completely get it. 

Some of you may see it as quirky and partially acceptable and not judge me by it. 

For those of you in the latter group, I love you for it.

I promise to try harder to watch the grammar or spelling errors but don't hold me too it. 

'Cause even though I promise to work harder on getting the house together...

we all know how that sometimes goes. ; )

On a side note, it was also mentioned that this blog does not give off a 

'good first impression' because of everything mentioned above. 

And this is what broke my heart a little. 

This blog is really not to impress anyone. 

It's to document life. It's a peek into moments that would otherwise go by unnoticed. 

Sometimes we all get caught up in perfection. I'm no stranger to that.

Sometimes though life is not about the perfect picture or the perfect blog post - 

it's about seeing the perfect moment.